hey im back again, life seems to be pretty much the same.
nothing new really happen except for studies becoming more f*cked up. damn it.
anyway this blog somehow is a place for me to vent and share my feelings.
the heart says right now " i miss haikal bin rajab" really? yeah so totally true.
when i told you about what happen i thought u did'nt care but when u did i know deep down in you, you still care and love me. baby, i dunno how to say this but its difficult going through this knowing that your not here with me. but its okay cause i know you'll be back, and i'll be there just waiting for you. now its almost one, im having a big presentation tmr im so woozy right now.
so i guess its goodnight for me.

baby every moment in my life, there's not a second you never came across my mind.
you'll always be in my heart♥

i can't bare to lose you baby.



its been month since i post something on this abandon blog.
im back to blogging days i guess, lets see if i do have free time. im in such misery, god knows what i've been through, life changes well that i can see, school a whole totally new concept. much more pressurising than what i thought. its crap im telling you, it feels like they are sucking ur brain juices out from ur mind changing you to become one big dummy zombie, DAMN!
Lately what i've been up to? hmmm NOTHING! god know how boring i am. i mean my life.
hey u wanna know what! i miss you:/, i mean really. the thoughts of you being so far from me really screw me up. im geting stronger each day like independent but its killing me not having you by myside. im not gonna give up. this time off somehow teaches me damn alots of things, control my anger somehow after one incident happen it shaked me up. i dun wanna be ur first but i wanna be ur last till death. people think i might be crazy but who freaking cares. because what i know its just you n me that matters. i stand my ground and hold on to my words tight, i'll wait for you. i guess you'll never come across your mind that i would be writing on this blog again. but baby you're my everything. the key is patients.

Raining, its a cold night how i wish you're here cuddling me with warm from your body.
im thinking of you, Goodnight♥
i love you haikal rajab, i'll always do.